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So I did the test for placement in the Japanese program yesterday.

According to the test, my grammar is easily at the 202 level, so if that were all that mattered, I'd be in.

However, my Kanji is in considerably worse shape.

The advisor wasn't sure about whether or not I would get in. The decision will be up to the professor who teaches the 202 class, whom he'll be relaying the results to. It's my job to get into contact with him and sort things out. If I get in, I'll have to spend the whole time between now and when school starts doing self-study to catch up on Kanji.

And there's another problem. The Japanese program is being downsized; a couple 202 level classes are being merged together, and the overall capacity will be less than half of what it was. The number of seats will be bottlenecking harshly. So I have to worry about class capacity in addition to everything I mentioned above.

I'm fixing to email him right now, but it's making me a bit nervous. But this is what I was talking about before... I can't let things that scare me hold me back, because there are way too many things that scare me. I'd never get anything done.

This brings to mind a quotation I heard a long time ago, which, cheesy as it may sound, has helped me a lot over the years when I'm afraid to do something.

"Do one thing every day that scares you." The quote, I believe, is attributed to Eleanor Roosevelt.

Remembering those words helps me do things when I'm scared. And I'll be damned if there's not a lot of that going around in my life right now.

So... gonna do this. And fuck the consequences.
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You know what?

I've spent my whole life running away from things that scare me. And there are a lot of things that scare me.

I'm sick of running.

Starting today... I'm through. No more. This isn't the person I want to be, and I'm tired of letting my fear get in the way of the person I do want to be. So, enough. No more.

Everything changes, starting now.
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revised and updated )

Yyyyyeah.

I haven't felt like updating for quite a while now (still don't), so I've got kind of a surplus of things to talk about. I've forgotten most of them, so this won't take long. ^^;;

First, took the SAT today. It was... meh. Not too difficult, but I had a hard time switching back and forth between English and Math mode constantly. I probably bombed the essay, since mine was really short. Eh, as they say, brevity is the soul of wit. ¬¬

Second, I'm dissapointed in you people. I expected more comments on my last two entries (now pretty old, but whatever), especially on the new layout. HINT. >o<

Third. My dad has restricted me from my room. Let me know if and when I start to appear mentally ill. Something's fixing to snap here.

Fourth, Taylor has gotten me to play World of Warcraft. It = win.

Fifth: I've been feeling kinda depressed of late; I'm not really in a good mood very much anymore. I think it's just the sum total of everything that sucks in the world and my life is weighing on me right now; we'll see if I can get it figured out.

And finally: I watched High School Musical and liked it. Screw you if you have a problem with that.
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Today marks the anniversary of a very special event.

On December 19, 1732, Poor Richard's Almanack was first published.

AND, on December 19, 2004, I created this LiveJournal. Glee. ^^

To celebrate, I may actually update this tired old layout, once the holiday season draws to a close and I take down this spiffy Christmahannukwanzakah-themed background. That is, if I'm not too lazy. ¬¬

Bi-yearly field trip to Uwajimaya is tomorrow, and I'm gonna pick up some Japanese manga while I'm there so I can translate it for my senior project. Apparently, the project proposal is good, it's just that I need to find a mentor and figure out how to document the hours.

Also, I need to get off my lazy ass and register for the SATs. The next deadline for registration is this thursday, after all. ><

On a slightly more angsty note, I may finally be able to talk to someone about being diagnosed with APD. And it only took six months, too. >.>

Anyways, stats for this LJ-Anniversary bash:

Friends: 8
Mutual Friends: 7 (You know who you are. Michael! >o<)
Communities: 16
RSS Feeds: 5
Entries to date: 70
Comments to date: 123
Comments by me: 139
Documented Interests: 78

Also as a celebration, I wanna have everybody who reads this entry leave a comment. Seriously, EVERYBODY. ^^

Oh, and The list is under a cut now. )
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[\] Research Colleges
>>[ ]Apply?
[\] Research Scholarships
>>[ ]Apply?
[X] Look into extracurricular activities
[X] Renew permit
>>[ ] Practice!
>>[ ] Sign up for drivers ed
>>[ ] Get a license
[\] Read the pile of handouts from Beyond High School >.>;;
[X] Decide on Major
[ ] Decide on Minor
[O] Study for SATs
[ ] Cut down on video game/computer time
[X] Get up to date on Hamlet Journal ><
[ ] Senior Project work
>>[X] Come up with an idea
>>>>[ ] Get idea approved
>>[ ] Find a mentor
>>[ ] Start workin on the damned thing


Bleah. First off, I'm getting tired of leaving my Dad's house angry. I always go there thinking that I've exaggerated the troubles within my mind, and that it couldn't possibly be that bad... then I go there, and he CONSISTENTLY proves me wrong. I leave in a huff, and through the following week I cool off just enough to start the cycle over again. DAMMIT. Somebody stop the ride, I wanna get off. ><

Second, I finished Son of a Witch. And... I loved it. ^____^ I especially liked the romance between Liir and Trism, I thought that was really cool. And it's completely different from the first book in that-- Wicked pretty much gave closure and catharsis to the story, and a sequel was the last thing I expected, so that when I saw there WAS a sequel, it surprised the hell out of me. But Son of a Witch leaves NOTHING closed, there are just so many little things left open, they all coalesce, so that the ending is just one big loose end-- so now it feels like there HAS to be another book, when there's little to no chance there will be. Dammit. But I loved it.

Third, snow. Since I couldn't get on LJ last week, I couldn't write about it, but there was SNOW last week. HERE. That's saying something-- we don't get much in the way of snow where I live, and last year was an especially bleak year in that sense. But on Tuesday, we got a TON of snow, about during third period. That's AP Lit for me, and the flakes were absolutely huge. Ms. Dann was trying to keep us concentrating on the discussion, but everybody was distracted by the snow, so finally she let us get it out of our system-- "Alright, everybody, I want you to write down one simile to describe the snow. Write it on your notes." My simile-- the snow is like a shower of feathers. (And it really WAS.) That's when I thought to myself, If I see a red one, someone's gonna DIE. (I can feel Michael disowning me for that. XD) But yeah. We actually went outside into the snow during that period, because we were reading lines from a play and we had to shout. Got soaked, naturally. Then I saw Michael outside acting like an idiot, catching snowflakes on the tongue and such. Brilliant.

That snow didn't last long, though-- in fact, it had died by the end of that period. BUT. It snowed a TON on thursday (started at about the same time as on tuesday), and it stuck, and hung around all day. Next day was a snow day, but I would just as soon have gone to school for all the fun I had. The snow stubbornly resisted melting completely all weekend, even though not enough remained for another snow day. Not that I minded terribly.

Parental units have been bugging me about a christmas list. Ironically, I always have a hard time thinking of stuff to put on these lists, since I usually lack an idea of what to ask for. Buh, whatever.

Before I forget-- I have been inspired by Taylor to write about a geeky .hack-related dream I had this weekend. Well, it's only a snippet of a dream-- I can't recall dreams with the length and accuracy that Taylor apparently can. >___<
yaaaay for geekiness )

As a brief aside, I saw the Viewtiful Joe anime this saturday. Scary.

God. Ever notice how I don't make an entry unless I have a ton of stuff to say? that's why I don't update very often. >__<;; Guh, I need to shorten my entries.
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[\] Research Colleges
>>[ ]Apply?
[\] Research Scholarships
>>[ ]Apply?
[X] Look into extracurricular activities
[X] Renew permit
>>[ ] Practice!
>>[ ] Sign up for drivers ed
>>[ ] Get a license
[\] Read the pile of handouts from Beyond High School >.>;;
[X] Decide on Major
[ ] Decide on Minor
[O] Study for SATs
[ ] Cut down on video game/computer time
[X] Get up to date on Hamlet Journal ><
[ ] Senior Project work
>>[X] Come up with an idea
>>>>[ ] Get idea approved
>>[ ] Find a mentor
>>[ ] Start workin on the damned thing

No real checklist update today... except that I lied when I first checked off the Hamlet Journal item, but it really is finished now. >.>'

Anyways, we took the final last week, and I don't think I did that bad on it. Then we got Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead to read over the weekend, that was kinda funny. And we had a party-like day on friday as celebration for finishing the Hamlet unit. We got cookies, donuts, pretzels, and we're watching The Renaissance Man. W00t for teacher-sanctioned goofing off in class! ^^

Also, if you haven't noticed yet (you probably haven't if you're viewing this entry through your friends page), I made a christmas remix of my old background, partly in celebration of the christmas season, but mostly as a celebration of the fact that I FINALLY GOT PHOTOSHOP AGAIN! ^___________^ So yes. W00t.

And, on that note, I also made a new icon. Ph33r. X3

Went to Barnes & Noble friday to get a few things. New line-up for today: Son of a Witch (sequel to Wicked), by Gregory Maguire, Wizards at War by Diane Duane, and... Hamlet. Since I'm going to have to return the school copy next week. I've done scattered reading of all three over the weekend, mostly when I should have been doing homework. ^^

Hm. What else...? Oyeah-- I made it to the final battle on .hack//MUTATION the other day. Got pwned, and haven't bothered to try again because I've been working on homework.

Eh, that's about it. I gotta go get breakfast now. x_x
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[\] Research Colleges
>>[ ]Apply?
[\] Research Scholarships
>>[ ]Apply?
[X] Look into extracurricular activities
[X] Renew permit
>>[ ] Practice!
>>[ ] Sign up for drivers ed
>>[ ] Get a license
[\] Read the pile of handouts from Beyond High School >.>;;
[X] Decide on Major
[ ] Decide on Minor
[O] Study for SATs
[ ] Cut down on video game/computer time
[X] Get up to date on Hamlet Journal ><
[ ] Senior Project work
>>[X] Come up with an idea
>>>>[ ] Get idea approved
>>[ ] Find a mentor
>>[ ] Start workin on the damned thing

Wheee, my AP Lit class is full of dorks. We were supposed to take the Hamlet final today, and we had a sub. Well, guess what happened? The sub thought we were another one of Dann's 10th grade english classes, and so we watched a video on Edgar Allan Poe (Which I swear I've seen before >_O), did an assignment on it that I KNOW was pointless cuz it wasn't our curriculum, and skipped the Hamlet final altogether. And nobody said a word because nobody wanted to take it. What is the fucking point, people? Not only is it the easiest thing you've ever seen (Matching up quotes with the people who said them, omg teh hardness X3), but we're going to have to take it anyways, all this means is that Ms. Dann is going to be pissed when she gets back on tuesday. And wow, a whole weekend of studying is going to make a huge difference, especially with this four-hour-long play that we've been working on, analyzing, and discussing for the past TWO FREAKIN' MONTHS. Ms. Dann said in the first week or so that we would be eating, breathing, and sleeping Hamlet. She was in no way exaggerating. And now we're going to have to eat, sleep, and breathe it for one more day than planned. Lovely logic, people.

On another note, I've officially gotten pwned by Cubia in .hack//MUTATION. Seriously. I fought that thing for what must have been a half hour, and (thanks in no small part to those damned Repth Gomoras-- and Physical Tolerance >_<) barely made a dent in its HP. Matt has some leveling up to do. x_x

Five new senior-project-related items added to the now-familiar checklist. More on that perhaps later.

I have a 6-8 page essay to do this weekend. Buh, the humanity. *dead'd*
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[\] Research Colleges
>>[ ]Apply?
[\] Research Scholarships
>>[ ]Apply?
[X] Look into extracurricular activities
[X] Renew permit
>>[ ] Practice!
>>[ ] Sign up for drivers ed
>>[ ] Get a license
[\] Read the pile of handouts from Beyond High School >.>;;
[X] Decide on Major
[ ] Decide on Minor
[O] Study for SATs
[ ] Cut down on video game/computer time
[\] Get up to date on Hamlet Journal ><

y'know, I've been here for a week, and I'm just now updating. :\

Slight checklist update. I've managed to invent another new mark-- the O, signifying something that I direly screwed up.

I thought I'd had everything handled for the SATs. And so I nearly did. But guess what?

I missed them.

Who misses the SATs!? It just doesn't happen! >____<

But somehow, I managed to. How? I memorized the wrong date. It couldn't have been the day BEFORE the real date that I memorized, but no, It had to be the day AFTER. I still have no idea how I managed to do that. But yeah. Most important test I'll ever take, and I screwed it up.

Also, I finished Hamlet. Dammit, that play has turned me into a Shakespeare geek. We also watched the Simpsons parody of Hamlet in class. My favorite part: "Oh, great, now Hamlet's acting crazy. Well, NOBODY out-crazies Ophelia! Hey nonny-nonny with the hoo and the hah and the nonny-nonny heeey!" *splash* (source)
XD muwahaha. But seriously, the play's actually pretty good. Shakespeare is not nearly as hard to understand as a lot of people think he is. Especially when he's annotated. X3

Third. If you haven't been able to tell, despite the music selections I've had for the last few entries, Michael and Beth have gotten me addicted to dot hack. I've finished volume one, so now I'm scrambling to get the one remaining unlockable movie before moving on to volume two. And btw, I officially disown anybody who plays it with English voiceovers.

Fourth. I am now the proud owner of the Hitchhiker's Guide DVD. >DDDD

Fifth. I finally watched Star Wars ep. III. Methinks it's the best of the series.

Sixth. I need to get back to my homework now. >o< buh, Matt hates homework.
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[\] Research Colleges
>>[ ]Apply?
[\] Research Scholarships
>>[ ]Apply?
[X] Look into extracurricular activities
[X] Renew permit
>>[ ] Practice!
>>[ ] Sign up for drivers ed
>>[ ] Get a license
[\] Read the pile of handouts from Beyond High School >.>;;
[X] Decide on Major
[ ] Decide on Minor
[ ] Study for SATs
[ ] Cut down on video game/computer time
[\] Get up to date on Hamlet Journal ><

Finally renewed the permit. I have to say, I'm freaked out. For my entire life, I've never been very photogenic, and I've always hated having my photo taken. But, since the start of this year, I've actually been liking the way I look in photos... Easily seen when I compare the renewed permit's photo to the old one taken more than a year ago. Suffice it to say, I have no idea where this came from. O.o

School work is still piling up. But I have to do a minor rant about Japanese class.

Our japanese class has a mix of students from levels 2 through 5 in it, so we're all in different places. In the beginning of the year, we all did the same review as a unit, so the lower leveled students were being left in the dust, and the higher leveled students, like me and Taylor, were falling asleep. i.e., it sucked.

Now, though, she's separated us out into two groups-- kouhai, the bulk of the class, and senpai, me and about 5-7 other kids who do more advanced work.

And guess what? It sucks.

I'm still doing review, albeit review that's ahead of the rest of the class's review. (They're doing the -te form again, wtf? And the whole class is acting like it's something new or something.) And, I still feel completely segregated from the rest of the class, and whenever she assigns homework to the kouhai that the senpai don't have to do, I feel like people are glaring back and whispering, "What smartasses...".

And I probably got some glares when I finished an assignment ahead of the rest of the senpai, and Ms. Jones told me to check everybody else's paper. (Class: OMG glare. Me: wtf? Why me? o.o) And I admit I am something of a smartass when I think, "How do you not know this stuff? We've already gone over all of this! Some of it last week!". Plus I certainly feel like a smartass when I remember how to use "hazu" and "tsumori" from memory, but the rest of the senpai have to consult the textbook. (._.;;) But I just find it ironic that now what I wanted all the first month has this month become my nightmare.

Really, I'm average, if not below average, at everything else. Why is there this stigma on being ahead of everyone else? It sometimes seems to suck just as much as being behind. Why should I have to feel ashamed of it? This is all I'm good at! >__<;;

But yeah. That's all. o.o;;
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[\] Research Colleges
>>[ ]Apply?
[\] Research Scholarships
>>[ ]Apply?
[X] Look into extracurricular activities
[ ] Renew permit
>>[ ] Practice!
>>[ ] Sign up for drivers ed
>>[ ] Get a license
[\] Read the pile of handouts from Beyond High School >.>;;
[X] Decide on Major
[ ] Decide on Minor
[ ] Study for SATs
[ ] Cut down on video game/computer time
[ ] Get up to date on Hamlet Journal ><

Began researching scholarships and visited Green River's web site last night. Also, I read the handouts from Beyond High School, but I will still need to look at them again. All of those constituted a half-mark on the checklist, meaning "begun, but not quite finished".

Also, I'm renewing my permit on monday. Finally.
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Question: What do you do when you just realized you've screwed your life up in a terrible and murderous fashion?

Answer: Start picking up the pieces.

I've created this handy checklist to gauge my progress.

[ ] Research Colleges
>>[ ]Apply?
[ ] Research Scholarships
>>[ ]Apply?
[X] Look into extracurricular activities
[ ] Renew permit
>>[ ] Practice!
>>[ ] Sign up for drivers ed
>>[ ] Get a license
[ ] Read the pile of handouts from Beyond High School >.>;;
[X] Decide on Major
[ ] Decide on Minor
[ ] Study for SATs
[ ] Cut down on video game/computer time
[ ] Get up to date on Hamlet Journal ><

So... am I up to it?

*looks at list*

I've got some work to do. x_x

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