Yay, the misery!

[majutsukai]

Wow. I just found out today how much I really matter in the world.

I had planned a really fun and enjoyable day at the Puyallup Fair with my friends today. I was getting my senior pictures taken, and was running a little later than I had thought. I called Taylor a couple hours earlier to tell her I might be there by six, but wasn't sure if I'd make it. Traffic caused me to arrive about a half hour past that mark.

I had realized while the pictures were going on that I had left my free ticket at home. No big deal, I figured. I'd pay for a ticket rather than take the time to go all the way home and get it. After all, I didn't want to keep my friends waiting.

Imagine that.

Once I had paid the admission and entered the fair, I called Taylor to find out where she was.

"We're at the mall," she told me over the din of fairgoers' voices. "We left already."

I was dumbfounded. "Why didn't you call me and let me know?"

"I wasn't sure you were coming," she explained.

Apparently it wasn't important enough to be certain.

The signal died before anything more could be said. I decided to take off and wander aimlessly rather than waste the fair admission by leaving.

I suppose I should thank her. My head was getting a little big; I'd actually allowed myself to get the idea that I mattered, you see. But it's no big deal. I've grown very used to feeling insignificant, as it happens.

I'm sure you think I'm overreacting, Taylor. You would-- with that warm, fuzzy blanket of friends around you at all hours, I doubt you've ever felt unimportant in your life. But you guys were the first friends I had ever had. Oh, yes, how selfish I am to feel so rejected. Have I no shame?

But I suppose I'm a fool to act so indignant when all I want is an apology. I just hope that's not too much to ask.

Comments

[hobbit-hunter.livejournal.com]

That's not true. Matt you never told me a deffinate yes or no. You didn't tell me so we weren't sure what to do anymore. We waited, didn't get another call, and so we left.

When you are planning a meeting with people, you need a yes or no. You need to know who is coming, when and where. Now yes I do feel sorry that I didn't call you, and kick me because Sean was nagging me too, but damnit Matt. I nagged you all week for a time so I could plan on it and you didn't supply me with the information I needed. So yes, I do feel bad and I'm sorry, but you have to do your part for a meeting.

[majutsukai.livejournal.com]

My mom and everybody else was just as much in the dark about the time as I was. Not to mention the fact that things got really convoluted once the daughter of a friend of my mom's was added into the photoshoot session sometime while I was at my dad's. Believe me, I did what I could with what I had.

And as a sidenote, I think ineptitude at planning runs in my family. :/ I take responsibility for delaying, but I really had no idea how things were going to work this weekend. I don't think they actually made any specific plans to begin with. ><;;

[majutsukai.livejournal.com]

Oh, and perhaps I should have clarified-- I'm not mad at you guys for leaving. If I'd had to wait for someone that long, I probably would have left too.

[fabricatedsoul.livejournal.com]

*just hugs*