I suppose I could be a LITTLE less cryptic...

[majutsukai]

Hm. Well, my friends seem to be on a binge of angsty posts where they relate all the stuff that's bugging them-- I figure I ought to look for a little emotional support, too. Actually, I had something very specific in mind.

I suppose you guys deserve a little more than I gave you in my last post... so, I'm prepared to relate a few more details, but it really can't be anything more than a rough outline. Hopefully, someday I'll be able to tell all the details, but I really don't think everyone's ready to hear them yet.

OK. Imagine if you will the following "hypothetical situation". Person A likes Person B. A lot. But Person A is afraid of what will happen if he relates his feelings to Person B. So, he keeps his feelings secret. He's also pretty sure that he would never have a chance with Person B anyways. However, imagine that the Fates decide to drive this point forcefully home one day-- when Person A finds out on a certain 17th of April that Person B is already taken. Fits of angst ensue; Person A can't just erase his feelings for Person B, but now he knows for certain that those feelings will never go anywhere and will just result in more heartbreak. And he still really wants to be friends with Person B, too. But those conflicting feelings are unpleasantly like being torn in half. So, what is Person A to do?

That's something like it, at any rate. I'm really not sure how to deal with this.

On a somewhat related note, I'm fucking tired of secrets. Everybody has them; but not everybody can share them, even with people they care about. So, what are we to do? Think of this post as something of a "rebellion" against those secrets.

I really do appreciate you guys-- I want you to know that.

Comments

[fabricatedsoul.livejournal.com]

I know we aren't really the closest of friends, or even if you consider me a friend at all, but hey I will offer my support and advice none the less.

I know that feeling well, to like someone a lot, but know you can't have them. I am not going to tell you what many people would say, about it going away with time, because sometimes it doesn't, but I offer you this, It will get more bareable. -hugs.-

About the secrets thing, people keep secrets to hide what they are ashamed of or what they think people might think poorly of them because of, overall because of fear. Sharing a secret with someone could ruin things that are fine as of now. I understand being tired of em. Idea, get everyone drunk. Then all those secrets will come rushing out. -laugh- Okay, or not.

I hope you feel better soon hun.

If you ever wanna talk to me bout something, I am always around, and always have an open ear.

Take care!!

<3 - Nikki

[majutsukai.livejournal.com]

Sure you're a friend-- sorry if I've made it seem otherwise. >>

And yeah, that really is exactly where I was coming from about the secrets issue. It's hella complicated. x_x

[fabricatedsoul.livejournal.com]

Nah, you didn't make it seem otherwise, It's just hard for me to tell with anyone now a days.

Secrects are complicated in general.

[hinoryu.livejournal.com]

I can sympathize. I've felt the same, Person A. But you learn to deal with it after a while.

And on the subject of secrets... Well, some things are better left secrets, I think. In a world where nothing was private... Then it wouldn't be nearly as fun as people think.

[hobbit-hunter.livejournal.com]

My big angsty post shared a lot of my secrets that only my Uncle and my Dad know (and he doesn't even know some of them). I only tell that stuff to people I really trust, and you're one of em. :)

*huggles you* If I knew how to deal with feelings, I'd be of more help, so all I can really offer is huggles. :(

[majutsukai.livejournal.com]

Huggles are always a good way of dealing with feelings. ^^

[nytyngayl.livejournal.com]

Wow, I'm more than a little late... XP

I can definitely sympathize- I'm kind of in the same sort of situation right now.... It hurts. XP

I have all kinds of secrets- I don't keep a lot from you guys, but there's all kinds of stuff that I just can't share with my family or anyone else. I just feel like sometimes it's better to have them not know then have to deal with the consequences of them knowing. Like maybe they'll treat you differently because of something you've done/said/felt/whatever and you just can't stand it.

So maybe secrets can be a good thing?

They're more of a pretection than anything...